I have been restless,words haunt me. I finally decided to write some.Julie is always in my heart, I cry a few moments here and there. I work nights and took a night off, I work better at night. We are d0ing well at the Moulds house. Everyday is challenging with new problems and old. Andrew is skating for the first time in these picture. He stays focused and never gives up. I learn so much from our children.

The trials and tests they experience is more than I can handle. I just worry pray and work a lot of overtime.Working in a factory has numbed my happiness, I have to look hard inside those four walls. I pass my frustration in my family, yet I am so blessed. I hope to write some more posts in the future. I feel Julie is with me as type on the keypad, saying "Go Tony my favorite Brother."

Seizure (4)

seizure (4)



We were getting ready for college.

Warming up the Green Van in Winter.

The drive used to be tedious.

Now it is a moment to talk to my son.

Snowflakes fall on the windshield as I wait.

Running in the House,fearing silence.

Screaming! your name, no response.

Finding you on the Buber floor,lifeless.

Julie wrote a paper on "The Divine Disease."

Discovered after her painful death with Cancer.

She speaks to me with past words,typed,formatted.

Edward Lear had Epilepsy.

Alexander the Great"And Cesar of Rome.

Explaining the Moment of Seizure is Divinity.

I feel Julie's presence when that moment occurs.

"Envious" of Andrew as She Dances with him.

Trying to hear her words of encouragement.

Talking to Julie,feeling her embrace.

That moment,sacred moment Julie is with her Nephew.

As I hold my Firstborn as a Infant.

The warmth overcomes me.

As she joins me in my sadness.

Epilepsy

Seizure (1)

I watched your body on the couch.

Twitching,turning blue,limp.

My firstborn,near death.

All of your life flashed before me.

Helpless,screaming for help,Helpless screaming for help.