All these years Julie Moulds Rybicki has been Co-writing a book with her husband John. He is finally done with the work they have produced. We will soon see poems and some of thier work published. John my brother- in-law is a compassionate poet-writer-teacher-human. I try to focus about Julie in her life with us before John, She was so happy with him, all she could was love and love him til her last breath.
Sometimes John thinks I am angry about his presence, actually, I am angry that Julie is not with her when he enters are house or Mothers. John has the carbon soul of Julie, She is gone, but all of the good of my sister is smeared on his skin. I am sad when he visits, he reminds me of my Julie without the punches and hugs. A matching set of compassion, is missing the other. I am missing Julie still, everyday I cry for seconds, then I move on. I did not endure the Cancer as John did, I was blessed to be with her in good health and spirit. She supported me till her last breath.
Am I the only one who expects the other person to come in when they come in? John endured the worst time in her life, and I witnessed her health and vitality. I am married to my wife Sue, 22 years last month. I can understand her love for Julie, its a different kind, unexplained. I love John, when he pats thier dust in our house, parts of Julie surround me. John shared the love of Julie only a Husband could give. We are both blessed in different ways, I hope John sees a little bit if my sister Julie when we embrace, the black cloud makes me choke, sadness and tears.
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